i remember in middle school and beginning of high school staying up late talking to someone whether it be texting or phone calls but always having someone i can turn to just because i wanted to talk.
i know only a handful of people who i cant still do this with and if i called them id probably be asked what i wanted and they would probably tell me exactly what i need to hear and id let them go back to sleep. but i miss the days when i would put my phone on silent and hide under the covers while i talked on the phone or text the night away.
i also miss how before you actually got to know someone and would “talk” to them for months at a time before actually going on your first date. i remember i actually had to hide my first boyfriend for four months before i told my parents because i want allowed to date, but boy did i love spending all the time i could with him.
i miss the days of actual communication and falling in love with someones voice and their words. granted we still do use words when texting but you can never hear the sincerity or honesty or truth in a text message.
hopefully one day i can fall on love like i was with my first boyfriend, i truly did love him, i miss the sound of his voice and his laugh but ill stop there. hopfully i can fall in love with someone and actually communicate with them unlike the next generations growing up.
its all up to hope.
I want to be able to see and be with my Chris again. The Christian that first had my heart. What would be doing right now? Would we still be friends? How would his family be?
I always miss you Chris, you never leave my mind.
I’ll always love you.
im looking through rat tags and omg!! i want a pet rat again!! i used to have one like 6 years ago but she got sick and died ;( but gosh rats are just soo freaking cute! especially when they have a little blaze on their head ahh i cant!
take me to a reptile show and ill get one there like i did last time and they wont be fed to a snake D:
Mothers Day at the beach with amazing family<3
i always just want to give up.
whats wrong with me?
These are my babies<3
Tommy the little giraffe, Little Bill the small hippo, Hammy the small pig and Sussie the big hippo.
Judge me, i dont care they are so comfy and cuddle-ly
missing some people but i love this team<3 these girls are amazing :’)
i want to know,
i want to know what it is that makes someone tick. i want to feel close to someone and know how to make them laugh when they’re upset. what to do to make them smile again. this isn’t just about falling in love with someone to go on dates with or all that but i want to know what its like to really know someone. to know what bothers them, what makes them happy. to know those little things that their family may not even know. i yearnto be able to know someone like this again, i don’t want to suffocate anyone i detest that but know that im close enough to someone that we can come to each other no matter whats happened during the day. i yearnto have someone to talk to and spend time with even when i want nothing to do with anyone. i yearnto know someone in an intimate way and to love them and have them love me.
